Sunday, November 30, 2008

Him.

The way he always turns to look at me before going to bed, lying side by side facing each other. Most times not speaking a single word, just looking at me intently in the dark, until I break the moment due to my own awkwardness.

The way he lets me sleep in even though he has to go to work, all because I look really peaceful in my sleep, and he doesn’t want to break that serenity. All the times when he’ll ask if I slept well, then going on to tell me if he had a good night.

The way he brushes my hair off my face that afternoon, while having lunch at The Cathay. It is also the same day when he mentions that I look really peaceful in my sleep, tells me about his flight back to Canada, and says that he asked if his lady friend is interested in being his girlfriend. Quoting him, “Technically, I have a girlfriend.”

We parted ways the way we always do, as if it’s any other day. But that might just be the last time I’ll ever see him. I wanted to snap a picture of him during lunch because I wish to have a picture which is exclusively mine, as a keepsake, but I didn’t.

It will always be a sweet secret of mine, those pictures I drew of him from memory. The image of his sleeping face, the way he lays face down on the bed with the sheets up to his waist. The scent of his apartment, the scent of him.

That particular morning, he looks exceptionally young. The way he paces around the space between the common room and kitchen, as he always does when he's on the phone, and the way he puts a hand on his hip and twirls his hair with the other. The way he likes to cover himself up to his neck under the covers.

His secret peck on my cheek on the eve of his birthday, when I took him out to dinner at Al Forno Trattoria. That was when I know that he likes buffalo cheese, and had the first taste of it.

His favourite Italian restaurant, Ricciotti, at Riverwalk. His favourite Ricciotti salad, with the bitter tasting rucola, crispy bacon, tasty grilled bell pepper, excellent smoked scarmoza cheese and extra virgin olive oil. And of course, his favourite San Pellegrino sparkling water. Recently he has a craze for Pepper Lunch. I wonder what’s next.

He stocks more drinks in his fridge than food. Marigold Apple, Marigold Orange, Marigold Apple Cranberry, Voda Voda, Green Tea, and Coca Cola.

The way he snuggles me, and the way he feels around my arm when I do the snuggling. The way he’ll stay still when I climb to his side of the bed and act as the man, cuddling him from behind and asking him things which he usually asks me. He doesn’t like it but I made him do it, saying that role reversal is good and that he should give up control once in a while.

The way he’s learnt to mimic me, and saying “Ohhh, I’m not going to say anything about that.” when I demand that I do not have a squeaky voice.

The way he plays with my ring at Loof, while I was on the phone. The way he runs his hand up and down my back at Crazy Elephant, when we went to meet his friends. The way he lets me rest my chin on his shoulder at the bar along Duxton Road. The night at Alley Bar when he lets me put lip balm on his lips, and wears my red wooden square beads necklace, just because I’m intoxicated and pouts a lot.

The way he holds me in his arm and cradles me on his crossed legs when I cried. The way he hugs me on top of him and let my tears soak his pillow.

The way he includes smiley " :) " at the end of his sentences in text messages. The way he says "hey" in a breathy soft tone when he picks up the phone. The way he puts on his t-shirts, dress shirts, trousers, cuff links, socks and shoes. The way he applies deodorant and perfume. The way he uses Q-tips for his ears after showers.

The way he frowns while he tries to formulate trades and draws invisible sequences in the air. The way he parades in his new purchases, and when he's trying to decide what to wear. The way his eyes sometimes looks green or brown. The way he stands behind me while we're both facing the mirror, telling me that I'm beautiful. The way he helps adjusts the leg straps of my Halloween costumes because I couldn't see them.

The way he always places a bottle of water on the dressing table for me. The way he places a towel on the washing machine for me. His blue shirt which I always wear. The way he arranges the sheets on his bed.

The way he's amused by the different nicknames I call him by. The nickname he gave me; pipsqueak, and the league which he places me in. The way he says "Don't mess with me."

The way he says "What am I going to do when Elise leaves?" The way he says my name.

The way that he just is.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Marriage

How will you choose your Mr Right?

You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your future hubby will be lovely and sweet, but a little immature - possibly even a spoilt brat! This guy will trigger your maternal instinct. You'll always be willing to watch his back and clean up his mess. He might be the same age as you are or even younger.

When will you get married?

As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.

What sort of wife will you be?

If your hubby is crazy enough to ask you to do silly things, you may as well have fun with him. You'll make a fun-loving wife.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving kids up. They are lively and smart.

How loyal are you?

You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.


http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test70.aspx


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

F1 Visa

Headed down to Hogs for lunch as I've got a couple of hours to kill before the designated time for visa collection. Dennis came out from the kitchen and said "Didn't know you're not working anymore. You didn't tell us about your last day huh? Be careful your food." To top it off, he has this really sinister smile on his face!

Food came out and looks and tastes all right. The Chef sat down and talked to me for a bit, then went into the kitchen to make a special mushroom sauce for me. "This is the real stuff. Only for my girl girl."

One fine day the Chef decided to call me "girl girl", and ever since then, the kitchenettes have been teasing me. Adding to that, the Chef goes around introducing me as his god-daughter! I'm really flattered! I'm going to miss Chef William.

After my meal, Dennis came out and said "Did you realise anything different?" and I was negative on that. Revelation: he gave me a bigger portion! Quoting him, "And you finish it all!" with a wide grin. No wonder I was feeling so damn satiated!

Carrie gave me a double dose when I ordered vodka sprite.

Aww...

I started missing Hogs after 4 days of idle life. I just have no idea what to do with my days!


Anyway...




I've been granted a 5 years visa, and I wonder if I'll stay for the whole duration. Oh well, too early to think about that for now.

I'm happy to have the legal part done.

=)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Good and Bad.

Headed to the American Embassy at 7.30AM and walked out of the building at 12 noon. The procedure went like this: wait, document check, wait, payment, wait, fingerprinting, wait, interview.

Any wonder why they say we spend a great deal of our lives waiting?

Nevertheless, my F1 visa has been granted and I'll be collecting it on the 18th!




On another note, today I worked my last shift at Hogs. It was a sudden decision made in the midst of lunch shift, after a woman told me that she's been waiting for her dessert for 10 minutes when it hasn't even been 5 minutes. Guess what? The moment I turned away from her table, the dessert came.

I'm sick of customers lying through their big fat mouth that they've waited this long for their food to arrive. You have a serious case of time-misconception, and I STRONGLY urge that you consult a doctor. Don't go around exposing your illness to the world, especially to us servers. We don't fucking care! Get it?

Don't lie. It makes you a BIG FAT LIAR, and that is fucking unattractive. You might never get laid because of that. So for the sake of your prospective carnal pleasure, DON'T LIE.

I was scheduled for night shift as well, but I felt that it's really time to go. Besides, Friday is always busy and I might snap during work. Waited for Raymond to arrive and told him about it. He was setting up the sound system for the liveband and upon hearing the news, stopped and came to me.


"What happen? Did something happen during lunch?"

"No. You know how a person is able to sense that it's time to leave? I'm reaching my limit and I know that, therefore I want to leave before I snap."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No, it's okay."

"You know, to be the best in this industry, you have to be a really good actor. It's all the same. Don't care about them. There is nothing to get upset over."

"I know. But I don't want to pretend anymore."

"Come here."

"I just want to leave. I've gotten Khai to replace my shift on Sunday, but I can't find anyone for tonight and tomorrow. I know that you're only short of 2 for tonight."


"Finish tonight. I don't give a damn about tomorrow night. I'll make do with it."

"We've experienced shortage of 7 before, so having a short of 3 will be fine. Besides, I didn't put my schedule on Saturday. You put it. So yes, you can deal with that."

"Finish tonight Elise. Be strong for me."

"But who's gonna be strong for me?"

"I will."


My tears were already welling halfway through the conversation, and upon hearing the last sentence, and with him putting his arm around me, my emotion broke loose.

I promised to be back for the night and give my best effort as a great finish. Headed to Raffles City for some nice papers and little clips. Wrote mini letters to the crew.

Didn't announce that it was my final night, therefore not many people know about it.

Almost like a silent departure. Don't wish to make a big deal out of it.


And so yes, I'm no longer working at Hogs. But it's been a great period. I'll definitely miss the crazy crew.

And now, it's time to catch up on the much needed rest, and to repay my sleep debt.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Your personality love style.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx?q=b

Monday, November 10, 2008

This is just the beginning.

An appointment has been fixed on Friday, for an interview with the American Embassy. Many documents to be prepared, for an application for a F1 Student visa. If everything goes as planned, I'll be spending New Year in a foreign land.

A couple of significant events in stall for December; Dad's birthday, a visitor from France over Christmas, followed by my departure soon after. Not to mention, I'm certain there'll be lots of meeting up with friends, and the much dreaded packing up. I'm anticipating a huge game of keep-or-toss!

It's going to be really tiring from now on, but it will be so worth it.

=)

Saturday, November 08, 2008

To be, or not to be.

The most difficult thing is the decision to act; the rest is merely tenacity. The fears are paper tigers. You can do anything you decide to do. You can act to change and control your life; and the procedure, the process is its own reward.

- Amelia Earhart

Monday, November 03, 2008

One of those days?

Making through a hectic 38 hours of...

- Shopping
- Work
- Halloween
- Tea ceremony
- House warming
- Wedding dinner


During which I've set a record for...

- Making purchases under 10 minutes flat, inclusive of browsing and trying.
- Having the most pictures taken within a 20 hours span.
- Walking and running around the most, in heels.
- Not sleeping for 38 hours, beating the previous by 2 hours.


Topping it off, the news of my acceptance in California, bringing about a storm of "Oh my gosh, what am I to do?!"


So how did I end this crazy race?

How else but by falling asleep while talking to someone!

*big sheepish grin*

Saturday, November 01, 2008

For I am fickle.

Mirror mirror on the wall, which school should I choose?




Sometimes, having more than one option is never the good thing.